Sometimes, especially when something great comes to an end, the nights become longer, darker, and more lonely.
Most times I don’t care – I like reflecting, being with myself, creating inspiration, easing my mind and thoughts by soaking up the sound of waves, wildlife and the occasional drunk people strolling by. Oh fun.
Right now I feel the immense sensation of loss.
The loss of new friends and family. Loss of love. Things, people, places. Loss of belonging. Loss of freedom. Loss of perspective? Heck, even the loss of good weather. I’m my best self when the wind is warm, the breeze is salty, and I don’t have to wrap myself in too much clothing when I leave the house. Darkness is my second enemy.
I love the brightness here. I love the sun and how it makes the area look so completely different than what I’m used to.
For example the vegetation here. Succulents are my new favorites. They thrive even in sand! Plants and nature are so beautiful down here. Vancouver has beautiful nature too, I know. But I don’t really want to be out in the nature if I get wet to my bones, freezingly staggering through the rain while the depressing weight of grey clouds are hovering over the city and also my mood until what.. May?
So ok, I’m depressed. That’s ok, right? I know that eventually it’ll all be ok. And as soon as I see the first sun rays over BC I will run out onto the water-soaked streets of Vancouver and do a happy dance. Promise.